29. My One and Only.

 I never thought that I would fall in love with a female. But I did, and here's the story.

Sometime in November 2024, my coworker asked if I wanted to take home the last puppy that he couldn't sell. I told him I didn't have the money, but he replied that it was a gift because he knew I was the best choice for a home. He had kept showing me pictures, and after a quick discussion with my husband, I brought the puppy home.

I had always had male dogs, so I feared the change and responsibility I was taken on. But within a few hours of having her home, I was obsessed. Immediately she was attached to me more than to my husband. She is my baby girl.

Due to the fact that my coworker gave her to me for free, I honored the name she came with, I just added a syllable and a middle name: CaMila Kunis. She is an English Springer Spaniel, but she identifies as Mexican; an independent Mexican chola. She doesn't realize she's British and every now and then, her accent comes out.

December was a rough month for me. Stress from my second job, potty training her, sleep apnea, poor sleep, and my anxiety in general threw me spiraling down to a mental breakdown or some sort of crazy shit that made me come to the decision that I wanted to give her away. Thankfully, the husband (figuratively) slapped me back to reality. He also jokes that I was so crazy that I tried to drown her in the bathtub, which is not true, of course. Mila followed me everywhere, so she hopped in the tub with me and that's when the husband walked in. We laugh about it now, but that night was insane. I hadn't had an episode like that in a long time, and as always, I hate them.

Today, I cannot see myself without Mila. She is definitely the gift I needed in my life. In times of chaos, she came and stood by my side. She is the sweetest, and I cannot stay mad at her for long. Charlie was a sweetheart, sensitive, and a cuddle bug; Frankie was rough and spunky. CaMila is all of them combined and different, I don't know how to explain it. She's just my sweet quirky spunky baby girl, and I am glad that I didn't get rid of her - not that the husband would've let me anyway.

So yeah, that's the story of how I fell in love with a female. The one and only.

[ ...Relax. Take it Easy. ]